토요일, 11월 29, 2008
Listening to: The songs on my blog on repeat mode
As the title suggests, i'm well, Bored.
Joined my primary school class group on facebook recently and its been pretty interesting figuring who's who. Lol. Nah its not i dun remember them, its just that i dun really recognise them. Especially the guys. Thinking back of the old times, the only guys (bois) i was rather close with in primary school were the malay bois in my class. Dun ask me why. But they were really a fun lot to be with, much more than the chinese bois. In fact i think i hardly spoke to a few at all despite being classmates for 2-3 years. I just knew they existed. Ha.
Hmm but it suddenly occurred to me how time flies and how scary the rate at which it is flying past.
I hate changes.
Been mugging for the past few days for my korean finals (and the feeling of mugging sux) so me n my roommates headed to Seoul Grand Park this morning for a breather. I love zoos. ^^ But the best that i went to so far is still the one in Taipei. I sooo wanna go to Berlin Zoo one day! Though by the time i make it there i think knut is already a full grown polar bear. argh.
Anyway my digicam battery died-ed on me even before i began using it so all the pics are with angel. Being the ultimate procrastinator, i shall (try to) put up the pics another day. Provided i remember to get it from her.. ha. The weather was blardy cold that the urge to curse rose up again. Yeah i have a tendency to tear up and curse simultaneously when it gets freezing. -___-
And my mood was also slightly uplifted when kiwon오빠 called me in the late afternoon. Ok i meant to say he called but i missed it so i called him back. It was rather amusing when i asked him why did he call and his reply was 'no reason'. Ha. Well i think the only reason was for me to entertain him as he was caught in a traffic jam on the way up to seoul from daejeon. As the 'dear but evil sister' (as quoted by him), i obediently entertained him for an hour on the phone while trying to browse through shelves of christmas cards at Bandi and Luni. My poor phone bill. I should have received the call and i wouldnt have to pay anything.. ㅠㅠ
Oh anyway he will be going to Singapore tomorrow on behalf on his company again. This is like erm the 4th overseas fully-sponsered trip that he's going on within the one year that i knew him? Ok i concluded his company must love him alot. Haha.
Hmm adding on to my korean book collection everytime i drop by the bookstores. I should frequent Bandi & Luni, Kyobo and Youngpoong more! Strange how i only collect korean and chinese books but i really dun have much interest in english books if you ask me.. maybe except for the murder n suspense stuff but i wouldnt buy them though.
I didnt mention se7en today~ Lol.
일요일, 11월 23, 2008
Listening to: se7en [와줘]
The sinking feeling just simply refuses to go away.
I cant come to a decision on how i want things to be.
I just know that i Loathe the impending changes..
그 목소리 잊지 못 한다
시간이 지나가면
잊을 수가 있나?
불가능한 진실 알면서도
잊기란 쉽지 않잖아
신사적이고 해서
더 잊지 못 해
잊어보고도
바로 그 뒷모습 또
기억으로 떠오른다
항상 그래요
내 인생 결국은 아무것도 안 남았다.. 역시.
금요일, 11월 21, 2008
on a fine line between reality and fantasy.
Everything feels pretty much unreal nowadays.
I think i need to force myself to slow down.
Its sickening and really drives me up the wall sometimes how i have to suppress my irrational/emotional side just so that i can be logical and not well, behaving in a less-than-rational manner.
Its a self-defense mechanism alright but just occasionally, cant i just allow my thoughts to run freely..?
I AM BORED. BORED. BORED.
Damn. I think im getting abit TOO infatuated with se7en. But he really looks mighty fine in the 2nd picture!
Ok, how can i not end it off with a picture of my beloved Jae..my favourite scene in their latest MV [Wrong Number].
ps/ I finally changed my music playlist.. [잘 할게] i.e. the song i have been playing on replay mode these days is actually the first song, [I will do well].
pps/ Stopped over at LG phone & fun shop to visit hwimoon today with jinhong. More about that next time..
ppps/ oh and i watched my first korean movie (without subs) in korea today too! Ha the funniest thing? Its a movie that hinges on a gay theme. Lol. Anyway its called [Antique Bakery] and i liked it despite the slightly errr, unusual theme. Main reason being Kim Jae Wook n even Joo Ji Hoon looking real good in the movie! (And yes, they are the main gay couple.. but Kim Jae Wook is really stunning ^^) Just to refresh some memories, he is the pretty boi barrista in Coffee Prince. I shall refrain from using the word 'effeminate' to describe him because the way it sounds puts me off and i am a huge fan of pretty-LOOKING bois who dun behave in a girly manner. It pisses me occasionally when ignorant people tend to lump both together but trust me, i cant even be bothered to correct them.
목요일, 11월 20, 2008
Listening to: se7en [잘 할게]
I just love this song.
There are so many things i wanna blog about.. about my trips to Mount Sorak, Yongin Everland, Busan, Gongju.. about my beloved DBSK and even about my recent obsession with se7en..
And the most amazing thing today.
I. finally. see. S-N-O-W!!
Ha ok it wasnt really THAT kind of snow, but at least i saw specks of snow~ mingled with rain. According to hwimoon, its called by another name but i cant recall the korean term for it right now. Anyway i cant wait for real snow to come.. ^^
And its pretty cool how nowadays every single breath i take comes out in vapoury wisps. Lol i have no idea how to describe that but i think its kinda understood la hor. xD Yupp it is that cold. But after yesterday's freezing -7 degree celsius, i am gradually increasing my cold resistance..
Hmm. I really wanna jot down all the places that i visited but im just so erm busy. Ha. In fact i have been practically going out everyday so as to fully utilize my remaining days in korea.. Its such a waste if i spend them on studying~ Lol.
OOps pardon me for some slight spazzing. Ha.
And 2 group pictures at Mt Sorak! Trust me, i would rather go bungee jumping than climb up to the peak of the mountain. IT IS SCARY. -____-"'
일요일, 11월 16, 2008
Listening to: se7en [잘 할게]
Dreams are meant to be an inspiration
A motivation to move forward
But in reality
dreams were never meant to be fulfilled.
제가 잘 하고 싶지만
잘 할 수 있나?
잘 한다는 그 생각
격국 잘 할 수 없네
근데
잘 할게
내 할 수 있는 정도까지
잘 할게
Listening to: Se7en [First Seven] album
I actually forgot his birthday.
Happy belated birthday Choi Dong Wook~~!!! 생일 너무너무 축하한다~ *^___^*
The two following pictures have nothing to do with his birthday but i thought they were pretty erm.. thought-provoking. Lol. His treble clef with wings is a real tattoo~ N i love his chin profile! ^^
Was looking through the se7en thread on soompi forum and it was really sweet how fans still remember his birthday even though he has been away from korea for such a long time. Everyone seems to be eagerly anticipating his US debut and i hope nothing goes wrong for him too.. I miss him! Yeah i know hwimoon kinda triggered off the se7en fangirlism in me again and maybe i should thank him for it.. Lol.
Hmm.. been letting my thoughts run wild these days. There's no denying that my life is mundane and i have simply no idea how to make it otherwise. I made a wish today while i was at Mt. Sorak.. A silly wish.
41 days..
화요일, 11월 11, 2008
I shall get to the point today cos firstly, its late and secondly, something is occupying my mind.
1. Happy belated birthday to my piggy ry~ I am so sorry this came late but i hope u had a wonderful birthday yesterday.. u know i luv ya~ ^^
2. This friday im going to dance to Wondergirls [Nobody] as part of the class skit and i shall not hold too high hopes for how it would turn out in the end.. lol. More about that after friday.
3. Today is 빼빼로 (Pepero) Day! Its kinda like Valentine's Day but instead of roses n chocolates, Pocky-like sticks called Pepero sticks are given. Took quite a few pics with my classmates but i dun have them right now..
4. I couldnt get my tickets to MKMF 2008!!! Argh. ㅠ__ㅠ
5. Lessons are gradually taking a turn for the better..
6. Im actually more addicted to makgoli (a kind of korean rice wine) than soju.. but i cant find people to drink more with me! I went drinking for 2 consecutive nights and i still miss the light-headed feeling.. I just adore that feeling. Of being conscious yet unable to walk straight. Lol.
7. I am gonna be in an article for a korean newspaper! Ha. That was pure coincidence cos me n my classmates happened to be walking down the path outside our school and the path is like lined with trees all with yellow leaves on both sides so its really pretty. So we were actually taking pics on our own then this journalist/photographer snapped us too. Heh. He promised to send us the pics and free copies of the newspapers when it comes out next week..
8. Time is ticking rapidly and i have no wish to leave korea with any regrets.. but sometimes, things just aint the way you wish them to be..
9. Conclusion: I need to learn to drink more. In kiwon's words, the only thing i learnt in korea is to drink. Lol. That sounds quite useful mah.
10. I did mention about drinking for 2 consecutive nights. Let me elaborate. For the first night, me, rachel and angel went drinking with hwimoon (the se7en lookalike) and well, as usual i was impressed with his gentleness. xDD And he patted my head twice after i couldnt walk straight! I thought that was pretty odd since he is younger than me. But oh well, i think im too short n childish to portray an 'older sister' image anyway. I think alot of people doesnt realise that the action of patting my head is actually my archilles' heel.. lol.
The second night i went drinking with shirley and jinhong. Heh my new clique in class. I think i have the tendency to form trios somehow. Think piggy zw n ry. And then think rachel n angel. Ha. Im gonna miss them after i go back to singapore! Though i can still see shirley since she's a malaysian staying in singapore.. but jinhong promised to visit us one day too.
피곤하다
그 낯이 익은 얼굴
보면 볼수록
나를 더 힘들게 하는 거..
이제 싫어졌다
그만둬야지
이런 생각이 들지만
항상 무의식적으로 누르는 번호
다시 다시 또 다시 누르고 싶다
재수가 없다.
목요일, 11월 06, 2008
Went for supper yesterday with my new friend and he treated me to samgyopsal + soju. I seriously think i need to improve my soju limit. Lol. I was feeling lightheaded just after half a bottle of soju k~ which is kinda pathetic. Especially when koreans love to go for a few rounds of drinking or other activities. Argh.
Anyway my new friend is really cute. Ha. Yeah the cute guy cum se7en-lookalike who sold me my phone. Ok i do admit that im attracted to his looks. Lolz. N also the fact that he is really patient and gentle when conversing with me in korean. ^^ To the extreme that i feel pretty bad cos i had to keep asking him to repeat his words sometimes. So in the end i taught him english in return for practising korean with me. His reactions are really cute too.. haha.
I think besides my di, he's the 2nd friend i know who is really cute. And both are younger than me! -__-
Ok i think im starting to sprout nonsensical stuff due to the effects of the soju i drank earlier with angel. Lol.
Hope i can see him soon again~ it must be understood that i need to feed my eye candy addiction in order to cope with the stress i have to deal with in class. Yeah.
N it makes me amused each time i think of how half of the words i say to him is just 'yes' or 'yes?' especially over the phone.. Lol. And how he always manages to understand what i mean even when i leave my sentences hanging in midair, uncompleted.
ps/ extra bonus: he's 180cm~ xDD
수요일, 11월 05, 2008
Today Ms. Wonderful dealt our class another round of insults again by commenting that we should not be changing seats once every week as it is too CHILDISH. I have no desire to know if she said it on purpose (cos we had been doing that under our previous teacher) or it was just pure coincidence. But if you ask me, i will definitely think that it is not the latter.
Yesterday she said that we were rude for coming in later than her. I understand that everyone should at least be punctual for the first class but for the periods after that i see no reason why she should be complaining. Doesnt she realise that the whole level is sharing the same pathetic toilets and that we need to erm queue?
Of cos today she again brought up the topic of us being rude. Ms. Wonderful even asked if we were taught in school not to greet teachers before embarking on her theory of good manners. Oh this was later followed by her theory of using our left and right brains simultaneously to create LOGICAL responses in class. I assume that we were either sprouting nonsense to her all along or else our brain systems are wired in a totally different manner from hers.
She surely enjoys spending time focusing on all the crap. And then complains about the lack of time.
And i seriously think she is aiming me.
Damm. If only she din see the results for our midterm tests..
She really goes all the way out to correct each and every flaw in my pronunciation. For the first time since i started learning korean, i had to pronounce 'k-i-m-P-a-p' for like 4-5 times in class before Ms. Wonderful was satisfied. Diaoz. And when somebody else read it as kim-Bap, she merely let it pass. WTH.
I frankly dun think she should be focusing on me when there are other students who need more help and also for the mere fact that i dun need to pass with flying colours since i will not be going to the next level anyway. Maybe i should just highlight that once and for all so that she will get it clear into that thick skull of hers to QUIT BOTHERING ME.
I learn best when left undisturbed. Period.
Ignoring all the crap from her, at least i got 2 things to look forward to~
1) I will be meeting my first korean friend that i made myself in korea later! Ha. I wanna emphasize 'made myself' cos others were introduced to me rather me going to know them.. its erm kinda different.
2) This friday i will be going to Ji-in (kyochan's cousin) 's house to stayover and going to everland with them the next day! Ha i was pretty shocked when ji-in's dad called me a while ago.
Ok, actually got things to blog about my busan/daejeon/gongju trip last weekend but due to time constraints, shall leave it for another day..
화요일, 11월 04, 2008
My new teacher sux and i mean it to the very core.
She deflates everyone's confidence, tries to conform everyone into sprouting her exact sentences, leaving not a single inch for imagination. So, i am supposed to learn by repeating what she says?
Woah that is surely constructive.
She is so super fake.
We were on this new vocabulary word about being generous and someone asked if she was that kind of person.
Her reply astounded me.
'Oh, depends on who im dealing with.'
Erm, i have no objection with this kind of reply whatsoever since personality differs between individuals but as a teacher, i hardly think that is the most suitable response that she could come up with.
And it totally pissed me off when i saw her using her PEN to write (in handwriting that is far from being legible) in my classmates' books. Harlow~ shouldnt you at least have the basic courtesy to ask first if its alright?! What the.. I swear i will flare up if she does that in my book. For christ's sake, its PEN. Its non-erasable. Get it?
Super duper fake.
Keeps harping that half of the class did really badly and that there is no hope of advancing to the next level. As a teacher myself, i always thought that deflating a student's confidence is a surefire way to destroy the student totally. And i dun mean praising upfront and then to find fault with every single sentence, including interrupting the student who is trying her best to construct a sentence. Teachers should not be teachers if they are not equipped with an extremely high level of patience. Not to mention that this is a language course, where students need even more time to think. She just steps in to stop the student AND then goes on to give her interpretation of the sentence with her logically correct grammar structures, while disregarding the original meaning that the student wanted to put across.
She fails to understand what we want to express and just forces her way of thinking on us.
I was also pissed when she said that 'oh please dun try to form long sentences since we will get it wrong anyway. So just stick to what i said in class.' It has never ever struck me that language study is a DEAD subject. I think according to her wishes, we might just as well be clones. Everyone knows that the best way to learn is from mistakes and here i have someone (who even mentioned rather haughtily that she is even more experienced than my previous teacher) who bans us from committing mistakes. Is that what we coin as perfectionist?
My foot, your head.
Any desire to construct sentences as homework vanished completely the moment she said that. I decided i will not hand in my homework for the rest of this semester. Since given her character, she will just return it to me and diss all the sentences in front of the whole class. This is what she does best anyway.
Makes us form sentences without even thoroughly explaining the new grammar structures (does 5 mins for each structure count?) and then of course, disses everyone's efforts. Oh, and tops the insult with a praise. How wonderful~ She just manages to waste all the time without elaborating on the critical stuff..
I forgot to mention i think she is narcisstic. I wasnt around yesterday and my friend said that she was telling the class she thinks she is pretty. -___- Today, she said she is experienced and that she is funny. AH HA HA HA.
The understatement of the year.
I look at her face, i cant even smile, not to mention laugh.
To add further insult to injury, i was waiting for angel n rachel at the stairs when she passed by me and asked me, 'Did i have you for interview during placement test?'
I was trying to recall when she quipped,
'You don't remember? Oh i also dun remember.'
Mad. If you know you cant remember, why bother to ask in the first place?!
My final conclusion: She has a serious attitude problem. On top of that, she has no capability at all to provide a conducive learning environment. If that is what she calls being experienced, i have no confidence in the system of this school.
Oh how could i have forgotten this.
She is extremely fussy about details and just about niams about everything.
Another thing was that she asked everyone about which level they started off with. And she gave that LOOK again when she emphasized that everyone should start off with level 1 or else we would not know this and that. I am not trying to be arrogant but i think the people who scored well for the midterm are not those who started off with level 1. What kind of stupid logic is that?
I am so gonna score super well for my final tests and throw the papers in her face. Of cos, i will be skipping more classes for the rest of the semester. Just so as to prove to her that without her, i can do much better. I have a feeling that she thinks im too arrogant and is trying to deflate my ego.
I see no reasons why i should depend on her when i had depended on myself almost all along.
She just dampened my mood for the whole day.
What a wonderful teacher.
토요일, 11월 01, 2008
Blogging this at my guesthouse in busan right now while waiting for yunling to finish bathing.. feels weird being in this part of korea. Especially when i have to endure with strange dialects. -__-
I am pretty glad jae n ho are able to get rid of their accents..Lol.
Anyway i just finished my midterm exams. Lets just say that im pretty satisfied with my oral marks, which was definitely higher than my expectations but also which i have yet to figure out why i got those marks when i was quite sure i did a bad job. Ha. I got full marks for my listening! ^^ But i wanna get full marks for all papers actually.. I admit i have always been an ambitious person~
377/400 is not really to my liking, especially at this level. Hmm.
Ok i think she's out~